Thinking about.....

Things I shouldn't be thinking about.

Today has been tough- I wanted to stay in bed this morning with the blankets pulled over my head, but I knew that wont be best for me, so I got up at 5:30 like usual, did my stretching, and exercises , showered and went to work.

6 years ago tonight my Dad literally dropped dead in my arms- He had just gotten home from work, and we were sitting in the living room talking. He started to wheeze and asked me to get his inhaler. In the 2 minutes it took me to go to his room and come back, he had stopped breathing. I knew he was gone when he collapsed into my arms and took me to the floor.

I did CPR for what seem like a hour- in actuality it was only about 6 minutes before the EMTs arrived. The EMTs did everything they could- the paddles, shots, etc. But I he never came back.

I still have night mares about that night- and the trauma of it all. There is a natural process that a human body goes thur when it dies suddenly like that, and I was unprepared for that.

In many ways I consider myself blessed, I was holding my Mom's hand reading her the national enquirer ( yes she loved that magazine) when she passed, My Dad died in my arms, and I had just kissed my late husband on the forehead when he died.

Monday would be my Mom and Dad's wedding anniversary = 46 years. The weekend he passed away was their 40th anniversary- No coincides there.
My Dad was devastated when my Mom died in 96, he mourned her and pined away over her death- he just was never the same after that. At least they are together now.

Pain- or why it is such fun being a girl....

I have always thought it was a really cool thing being female- that is till this last week.

Last weekend while I was in Las Vegas- I started experience left side groin pain. At first it wasn't bad, and I thought perhaps I had pulled a muscle or something. As the weekend progressed so did the pain, so that by Monday when we got home I was concerned I have maybe caused a hernia or something.

Wednesday I had an appointment with my new PCP and asked her to check it out. She could not find anything herniated but did a quick pelvic and felt like there was something with the left ovary and suggested I see my GYN- which I did on Friday afternoon.

The pain was really bad by Friday afternoon and my GYN did a sonogram and sure enough that ovary was very enlarged, due to my size and the swelling of the ovary he was unable to tell if there was a cyst within the ovary or on it. But suggested that over 90% of ovarian cysts in women are self resolving. He did however caution that they do sometime rupture and if I felt that was what I was experiencing I might want to go to the ER. Well DUH...
I left his office with prescriptions for Naproxen and Lor tab, and was told to take it easy.
Saturday night I was in horrible pain. I took myself to the ER- what a joke, they did another sonogram determined that the left ovary was still in tact - gave me a prescription for steroids and Deluded for the pain and said go home and rest.

So yesterday taking a shower was my most strenuous exercise, I worked today, and the pain is subsided just a bit, but its still painful to move around much.

Its all part of the journey I guess...

74.4

That is the number of pounds I have lost so far.....

I know unbelievable. I was shocked.

Today I had an appointment with my new PCP. She is very supportive of the weight loss, very encouraging of all that I am doing.

Not long after I started my weight loss journey I started experiencing serious drops in my blood sugars- a few mornings my levels were low enough that I passed out. When I called my previous PCP she told me that I should not have changed how I was eating - that I was too old and that I needed to resume what my body was used to. So I fired her. I had been
delaying finding another one, and was not sure I really wanted to find 1. But I am very happy with this new doctor.

My blood pressure is also an issue- it was way too low so she took me off 1 of the meds I had been on and cut the other in 1/2.

They only part of the appointment that kind of sucked was when she told me that I am now old enough that I need to be aware of bone loss, but that I am still young enough that I have to also worry about getting pregnant- kind of sucks if you ask me.

But all in all it was a good day.

This journey is awesome.

Home from Vegas

I'm home, cold and tired - a good kind of tired, a kind of tired that comes from walking a LOT in 4 days, not sleeping much and having had a great time.

As for the goal- YES I was able to do all the walking without back pain, it actually felt good to walk and have a good time with friends I only get to see once a year.

Vegas was full of temptations. The old Terry slipped back in to play for a few moments on Friday Evening. My boss and I had gone to the Hilton buffet for dinner. Dinner went great- lots of good protein choices, I decided I wanted to have a bit of something sweet- my boss did too- so he suggested I just get a few different things and we could share. WELLLLLLL
a few things- I came back to the table with 9 different chocolate treats and a bowl of chocolate and vanilla frozen yogurt twist. My boss thank fully took the plate of treats away from me and told me to enjoy the frozen yogurt.
I really wanted just a spoonful of this chocolate/raspberry brownie treat. I spoonful was way too sweet and I didn't even finish the 1 spoonful.

All in all Vegas was great- I have been wanting for a while now a GET ADJUSTED polo shirt. Well this weekend I purchased the largest size they had and I figure in about 60 more pounds I will be able to fit into it.
That shirt is my next goal.

Loving this Journey.

Terry

Off To Las Vegas

Tomorrow after work I leave for the Annual Parker Chiropractic Seminar in Las Vegas . It's always AMAZING!!!!! There is just something so awwh inspiring about being with 6 or 7 thousand other like mind people focused on 1 vision, 1 idea, 1 betterment for mankind.

I won't preach about the benefit of Chiropractic - I'll wait till I get home on Sunday and am all fired up from the weekend for that.

This will be year #6 for me, each year has posed to be a challenge for me as its nearly a 1/2 mile walk ( Ok Jeff and Aaron I know you guys run tons more then that) from the room to the seminars. Normal I have to stop at least once because my back and knees are hurting so bad I can't stand it and my breathing is usual labored.
The first goal I set with my coach was to be able to do this weekend Pain free and drug free. There is lots of walking in store, some dancing, lots of inspiration and fun in store.
I will let you all know how I did when I get home.

Life is an awesome Journey.....

Procrastinators

My Dad was the king of procrastinators. The day I got married 23 years ago- I was supposed to be walking down the aisle at 10 am- at 9:45 my Mom was fussing with my Dad to get in the shower and get dressed. Yeah I didnt make that 10 am call. It was more like 10:30.

I'm not really a procrastinator I am more of a planner/preparer. My boss and I are leaving Wednesday evening for Las Vegas. Three weeks ago I had my list of things I needed to take with me written. As I did Laundry on Saturday I folded and packed most of my clothes, only thing left unpacked are my glasses/contacts, make up, etc.

Today I asked my boss if he knew what he was taking- he said NO, that he in fact had not even done laundry yet...... We saw patients all day today, tomorrow afternoon and wednesday morning. So just when is he planning on doing laundry?
Don't get me wrong- I adore my boss- he is one of my best friends- but somedays I would like to smack him. There was the time in 2002 when he was going to Irland. He had booked the trip 5 months ahead of time. He had been excited about it, looking forward to it. I arrived at his house on Saturday afternoon to take him to the airport- anticipating throwing his bag into the trunk and heading to the airport. WRONG- when I arrive at his house- he had not packed a thing!!!!- worse then that his bag was broken and it was then that he told me that it had been broken for about 6 months????

Thanks for letting me vent- and for those of you that wait till the last minute to do everything- CUT IT OUT- you make those of us that plan and prepare NUTS.

Jeans

I have always been a blue jeans girl. I don't think I owned anything but from age 8 till 19. I am still a blue jeans kind of girl. Since Thursdays are a non - patient day, I wore an old pair of jeans to the office. As I was preparing to leave the apartment. I went to take the trash out, and having forgot to put a belt on, and low and behold my jeans fell to my ankles. OOOOPPPPSssS. I am glad that I wasn't totally out of my front door yet.

I'm not a shopping fan - actually I hate it, once online shopping became a possibility it is the only way I shop. One of my favorite on line stores had a great sale on jeans last week- $9.00 a pair, and free shipping- so I ordered a few pair. I ordered them 3 sizes smaller thinking that at that price they could hang in the closet for a bit. Well they fit and are a bit loose. I also ordered a jean skirt 3 sizes smaller that was on sale for $4.50 and it too is a bit loose.

Our new office has 15 steps to get from the main floor to my office, and I do those 15 steps about a dozen times a day, and I swear that is the best exercise I could be doing.

The journey is awesome.

Looking forward

Well this week was a bit better then last week. The new office is looking great, my office is lite lavender and dark purple with white chair rail and trim. It looks awesome. After waiting a week for the electrician to finish the wiring we are now done.

The folks responsible for our X-ray equipment begin their install tomorrow, we are still waiting on the new tables and frankly I am getting ready to cancel that order all together since they aren't being cooperative.

Eating wise- it was a better week. New years eve I went to dinner with a dear old friend that is recovering from Liver transplant surgery. She is 8 weeks into her recovery and feeling good, she was eager to celebrate the New Year. We went to a Japanese steak house- my first time and it was incredible. The food was fresh, healthy and delicious. I topped the evening off with some pink ( of course) champagne as I watched the ball drop on TV. It seems like it gets harder and harder to make it till midnight. My nephews made it till 3 am. Not me I was in bed by 12:45.

2009 holds alot of promise- its going to be an awesome year. I am committed to my weight loss journey, committed to falling in love with the man of my dreams, committed to the practice growing and thriving, and most of all committed to living life.
I am looking into ballroom dance classes as that is something I have always wanted to do.
I am also going to join a gym ( yes I said that) the local brick bodies is less then a mile from my new office- they open at 5 AM (anyone really get up that early) and they have a complete aquatic center.

I played football with the nephews today- yep I am too old to be doing that but it was funny any way.

Are you enjoying your journey?

Happy 2009

Its 2009 already- wow Doesn't seem possible its 2009 already. The first New Year I remember bring in was 1970. 39 Years later.... when did that happen?

Its the time to look forward to all the things we want for ourselves.

I have friends that are very spiritual and believe that what ever mood, and mindset we develop in the first 12 hours of the new year will set the tone for the whole year. What is the tone of 2009 going to be for you?

I don't believe in new years resolutions,because by Jan 2 they will be forgotten. I make New Years declarations.

So here are mine:

I started my weigh loss journey on Sept 14 2008, by Sept 13 2009 I want to be 150 pounds less.

The Chiropractic practice I manage in Reisterstown is going to have its best year ever.

My family and friends will have a very healthy and successful year.

2009 is the year I am going to fall madly, passionately in love with the man of my dreams.

Wishing you a very successful, happy, healthy and prosperous 2009!!!