As I sit here today- in shorts and a tank top with my AC on, I think of April 27 1996- it was cold damp and a constant drizzle that day. Why do I remember the weather from 13 yrs ago. Easy- Today is the day my Mom passed away in 1996. She was 55 when she died.
In March of 96 she was diagnosised with Multiple Mylomia which is a rare blood born cancer. Less then 6 weeks later she was gone.
In those last few weeks she enparted several incredible life lessons- I have decided to share a few of those with you.
Life Lesson #1-
My Mom had never ever watched the news or read a news paper- she didnt even like them in the house. She choose instead to read things like the National Equirer , the globe, the star, ect- Trash magazines we used to call them. It was during those last weeks of her life that I began to understand why. As Mom grow to weak to read herself I would read her this magazines- and she would laugh and laugh- there was one day she and I were both laughing so hard we had tears rolling down our faces, and our sides were hurting from laughing so hard. She told me that- to find something everyday to laugh about.....
Life Lesson #2-
Mom was wasting away quickly and couldnt eat, the doctors had suggested giving her ensure to drink- well she hated the taste of it- so I began making her a special milkshake everyday- 2 scoops of vanilla Ice cream, a packet of Carnation instant breakfast mix, a can of ensure, a cup of cold milk and several sqirts of hersery's chocolate syrup- all in the blender- then served to her in a big glass with a bendy straw. It would take her hours to drink this - but she liked it and would drink the whole thing. I was working from 11 pm till 7 AM and would frequently get home as my Dad was leaving so that I could take care of Mom all day. One particular Saturday morning- Dad was home and told me to just go to bed and he would care for Mom that day. I offered to make her my special shake before I went to sleep. He told me no that was ridiculous and that all he needed to do was tell my mother to drink the ensure.... I had barely gotten into my PJs when I heard Glass shattered in my Mom's room. I walked in to find Dad and the wall behind him covered in Ensure and glass all over the floor. Once I had made Mom her special shake and brought it to her- she told me- NEVER Ever assume you can changes someones mind on something they do not want.
Life Lesson #3
On Valentines night 1984- while crossing Reisterstown Road after work- I was hit by a buick- My then 18 yr old Brother was one of the witnesses to the accident. He scooped me up off the street- called for help, etc- once I was safely on my way to the hosptial he went to find my parents who were out to dinner for Valentine's day (long before cell phones) He found them finishing dinner- Dad took my brother's car (Dad always thought he was the move level headed parent) and raced to the hospital- leaving my brother to take care of my Mom and the valet with Dad's car. Once in the car My Mom asked my brother " What underwear did your sister have on", My brother's response was I dont think it matters- they shredded her clothes at the scene. Once in the ER My Mom was obsessed with finding out if my contacts were still in my eyes. It was during those last weeks of her life that I finally found the courage to ask her why she had been so worried about contacts and underwear... She told me that she always worried about the small details because God took care of the big ones..
Just a few of the many lessons I learned from my Mom. For those of you that read this blog that knew my Mom please feel free to share your own stories of her. She would be tickled.
For those of you that didnt know my Mom- she was an amazingly strong, determined, loving and funny women.
To honor her today- I took flower and a national Enquirer to her grave and left them for her.
Monday, April 27, 2009
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Visit with my ETN today.
I had an early morning appointment with my Ear, Nose and Throat doctor today. We discussed my frequent and lingering Strep throats- I have had 7 of them in the last 6 months..... ARGGGGG
He confirmed that in fact my tonsils have GROWN BACK!!! Lucky me...
Even better- after being on an antibotic for 2 weeks and having just come off it- I have strep AGAIN...
I love this doctor - he is by far the greatest. He was very very straight with me- he said that the removal of tonsils - surgery wise at any age is an easy surgery from the surgeons stand point. 45 minutes snipe snipe over and done with. HOWEVER, the recover is a misery the older you are. 26 yrs ago at the age of 19 the recovery was not fun... He assures me that it would be even less fun this time around.
Wanting to spear me that misery he has decided to put me on a very strong antibotic for the next month ( like the 2 weeks worth didn't already cause a yeast infection).
After a month on this one I will have to go back for another throat culture- if there is still signs of strep- we will have no choice but to remove them AGAIN....
If this bout is cleared up we will have to keep a watchful eye on them for a while.
He confimed what I already suspected that they were very swollen as swallowing is very difficult right now. He recommend COLD COLD drinks and rest.
Now to the REST thing- I have been feeling a bit like Rip Van Winkle lately- all I seem to want to do is sleep. My coach and I had discussed this and he thinks its my cortisol levels coming down, and my body's way of adjusting to the many changes.
THe ENT agrees with that and thinks that my body is also trying like made to fight off this strep infection and ralling all his resourses to do that. So he said SLEEP..
On a side note- he was soo shocked when he saw me today- last time I saw him was when he released me from my sinus surgery at the begining of last August. He was so impressed with the weight loss, and how I looked.... ( Made me feel good he noticed)
I have stocked up on probotics and yogurt with probotics in it. We will see what the next month brings.
Thanks
P.S.My good friend Jeff will be starting the American odyess relay tomorrow AM- this is a 200 mile relay race from Gettysburg to Washington DC. I wish him the best and hope all goes well for him. Here it the link to his blog if you are interested-http://www.formerlyfatrunningguy.blogspot.com/
He confirmed that in fact my tonsils have GROWN BACK!!! Lucky me...
Even better- after being on an antibotic for 2 weeks and having just come off it- I have strep AGAIN...
I love this doctor - he is by far the greatest. He was very very straight with me- he said that the removal of tonsils - surgery wise at any age is an easy surgery from the surgeons stand point. 45 minutes snipe snipe over and done with. HOWEVER, the recover is a misery the older you are. 26 yrs ago at the age of 19 the recovery was not fun... He assures me that it would be even less fun this time around.
Wanting to spear me that misery he has decided to put me on a very strong antibotic for the next month ( like the 2 weeks worth didn't already cause a yeast infection).
After a month on this one I will have to go back for another throat culture- if there is still signs of strep- we will have no choice but to remove them AGAIN....
If this bout is cleared up we will have to keep a watchful eye on them for a while.
He confimed what I already suspected that they were very swollen as swallowing is very difficult right now. He recommend COLD COLD drinks and rest.
Now to the REST thing- I have been feeling a bit like Rip Van Winkle lately- all I seem to want to do is sleep. My coach and I had discussed this and he thinks its my cortisol levels coming down, and my body's way of adjusting to the many changes.
THe ENT agrees with that and thinks that my body is also trying like made to fight off this strep infection and ralling all his resourses to do that. So he said SLEEP..
On a side note- he was soo shocked when he saw me today- last time I saw him was when he released me from my sinus surgery at the begining of last August. He was so impressed with the weight loss, and how I looked.... ( Made me feel good he noticed)
I have stocked up on probotics and yogurt with probotics in it. We will see what the next month brings.
Thanks
P.S.My good friend Jeff will be starting the American odyess relay tomorrow AM- this is a 200 mile relay race from Gettysburg to Washington DC. I wish him the best and hope all goes well for him. Here it the link to his blog if you are interested-http://www.formerlyfatrunningguy.blogspot.com/
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Life is good
Life really is good.
I'm feeling better. Still sleeping a bit more then I think I should be but that might be the last effects of the virus or it might just be my body telling me it wants more sleep.
When I started this incredible journey Back in September I was sleeping maybe 4 hours a night and knew that was a problem. I had eventually gotten to the point where I was sleeping between 6 and 8 hours a night, the last few weeks I have been sleeping 8 to 10 hours a night. Its all good. If my body needs more sleep right now to regroup, rebuild, rehab- I will be happy to give it...
The strep throat has cleared up, today is my last day on antibotics and I do feel better. My PCP has asked me to consult with and ENT about the whole tonsils regrown thing. So I have an appointment Thursday Morning with the same ENT that did my sinus revision surgery last July. He is really an awesome doctor and I completely trust him.
After Thursday night's "just want to be be friends with benefits" date I have done a good be of soul searching, talking to friends, emails with my coach and a few other folks whos opionons I respect. So here is what I have come to the realization of
LIFE IS GOOD:
I have some of the greatest friends. I have long term friends too- I have talked before that I am still really good friends with folks from High School and college.
I have an awesome brother, I count his wife as a friend, they have 2 amazing, healthy, happy and energic boys.
I do what I love and love what I do as a career. I have an amazing boss who is also a good friend.
I have been blessed with an amazing health and wellness coach. His advise is always right on, and I really do credit him for showing me how to get my life back. With his coaching I have learned to listen to my own body and STOP fighting my own innate intelligence.
I'm happy where I am at in my life. Its not perfect, but no ones is...
I decided this weekend to take down the dating site profiles - when my life is ready for a mate- he will appear... that is just how my life seems to work and I am really ok with that.
Life is good- the journey is amazing...
I'm feeling better. Still sleeping a bit more then I think I should be but that might be the last effects of the virus or it might just be my body telling me it wants more sleep.
When I started this incredible journey Back in September I was sleeping maybe 4 hours a night and knew that was a problem. I had eventually gotten to the point where I was sleeping between 6 and 8 hours a night, the last few weeks I have been sleeping 8 to 10 hours a night. Its all good. If my body needs more sleep right now to regroup, rebuild, rehab- I will be happy to give it...
The strep throat has cleared up, today is my last day on antibotics and I do feel better. My PCP has asked me to consult with and ENT about the whole tonsils regrown thing. So I have an appointment Thursday Morning with the same ENT that did my sinus revision surgery last July. He is really an awesome doctor and I completely trust him.
After Thursday night's "just want to be be friends with benefits" date I have done a good be of soul searching, talking to friends, emails with my coach and a few other folks whos opionons I respect. So here is what I have come to the realization of
LIFE IS GOOD:
I have some of the greatest friends. I have long term friends too- I have talked before that I am still really good friends with folks from High School and college.
I have an awesome brother, I count his wife as a friend, they have 2 amazing, healthy, happy and energic boys.
I do what I love and love what I do as a career. I have an amazing boss who is also a good friend.
I have been blessed with an amazing health and wellness coach. His advise is always right on, and I really do credit him for showing me how to get my life back. With his coaching I have learned to listen to my own body and STOP fighting my own innate intelligence.
I'm happy where I am at in my life. Its not perfect, but no ones is...
I decided this weekend to take down the dating site profiles - when my life is ready for a mate- he will appear... that is just how my life seems to work and I am really ok with that.
Life is good- the journey is amazing...
Friday, April 17, 2009
The miss adventures of dating in your 40s.
Warning- this blog post has little to do with weight loss and is more a commentary on life in general.
I never intended to find my self in the dating world at 45. By age 22 I was happily married to a wonderful man that I had intended to grow old with. Well that didn't happen. Thanks to his obesity, dibeties and heart conditions he was called home to be with God alot sooner then I would have liked.
He knew he was not long for this life in 2003 after a series of strokes left him bedridden and unable to move his legs or 1 arm. He made me promise I would not pine away for him. That I would go out and date, met someone wonderful and marry again.
It took a little more then a year for me to get out of the BLACK hole I fell into after he passed away. Shortly after emmerging from that hole - I put up several dating site profiles. Mostly on dating sites that are for BBW's .
Well dating is ALOT different then it was 25 yrs ago. At first I was getting "hits" from alot of men telling me they were working in Africa or Ghana- yeah right- I'm not that stupid.
Once in a while I would get a "hit" from a real man. Someone relatively local- we'd email for a bit, then chat on line , then when I felt comfortable I'd give him my cell phone number. Occasionally I have met a few of these guys.
NONE to date have worked out....
There was the guy I left sitting in TGI fridays after he belittled the waitress before we had even ordered our meal.
There was the guy who had our wedding planned before we had even gone out.
There was the guy who asked me the most degrading discussing question ever and also got left in a restuant.
There are alot of guys who just want to come here on the first date- NOT HAPPENING.
Last night I went to dinner with a man I have been out with a few before- I thought we were enjoying each others company. He does too- but during the course of dinner he tells me that he "just wants to be friends with benefits".... what exactly does that mean....
Don't get me wrong- I have had friends all my life- I still have friends from Jr. High, High School and College... but Friends with benefits... thats a new one to me...
SO I am turning to you- my obviously much more intelligent friends and blog reads to please enlighten me as to what are " Friends with benefits" and what kind of relationships is that...
For the record- I am seeking a Nice, Normal, Funny, Sensative and caring Guy ... know anyone?
This journey is full of twists and turns....
I never intended to find my self in the dating world at 45. By age 22 I was happily married to a wonderful man that I had intended to grow old with. Well that didn't happen. Thanks to his obesity, dibeties and heart conditions he was called home to be with God alot sooner then I would have liked.
He knew he was not long for this life in 2003 after a series of strokes left him bedridden and unable to move his legs or 1 arm. He made me promise I would not pine away for him. That I would go out and date, met someone wonderful and marry again.
It took a little more then a year for me to get out of the BLACK hole I fell into after he passed away. Shortly after emmerging from that hole - I put up several dating site profiles. Mostly on dating sites that are for BBW's .
Well dating is ALOT different then it was 25 yrs ago. At first I was getting "hits" from alot of men telling me they were working in Africa or Ghana- yeah right- I'm not that stupid.
Once in a while I would get a "hit" from a real man. Someone relatively local- we'd email for a bit, then chat on line , then when I felt comfortable I'd give him my cell phone number. Occasionally I have met a few of these guys.
NONE to date have worked out....
There was the guy I left sitting in TGI fridays after he belittled the waitress before we had even ordered our meal.
There was the guy who had our wedding planned before we had even gone out.
There was the guy who asked me the most degrading discussing question ever and also got left in a restuant.
There are alot of guys who just want to come here on the first date- NOT HAPPENING.
Last night I went to dinner with a man I have been out with a few before- I thought we were enjoying each others company. He does too- but during the course of dinner he tells me that he "just wants to be friends with benefits".... what exactly does that mean....
Don't get me wrong- I have had friends all my life- I still have friends from Jr. High, High School and College... but Friends with benefits... thats a new one to me...
SO I am turning to you- my obviously much more intelligent friends and blog reads to please enlighten me as to what are " Friends with benefits" and what kind of relationships is that...
For the record- I am seeking a Nice, Normal, Funny, Sensative and caring Guy ... know anyone?
This journey is full of twists and turns....
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
A slow come back
Wow this last week has not been the greatest. Last Tuesday I noticed some swelling under my jaw line on the right side and then later in the day swelling of the glands in my groin and under my arm. Wednesday brought more swelling and a scheduled visit to my PCP for a meds check. She did a strep test and it showed positive right away.
She put me on an antibotic and did a Mono blood test and sent me home to bed.
By Friday the swelling was really bad, and my throat felt like I was swollowing lite matches. When I called my PCP her nurse advised me that they had no appointments available as it was a holiday ( Good Friday), they advised if I felt that bad I should go to Patient first or the ER. I picked Patient First. I had a friend take me.
The Doctor at Patient First was very nice- he did a strep test which came back positive, a MONO test which came back negative ( thats a good thing) diagnosised me with a severe strep throat and virus. Advised bed rest and fluids- yeah right I was having a hard time swollowing my own spit.
On the way back my friend and I stopped at Safe Way, got some grape juice - the orange juice I had been trying to drink was just too much for my throat, some vita waters, some soft cheese, yogurt and sherbert. Not exactly on my eating plan but it was all soft and easily swollewed.
To bed I went with my trusted heating pad on my face- the doctor had recommend the heat to promote blood flow to the area to help the swelling.
I'm getting a bit of cabin fever- I'm not a good intervort - I like people I like being out and about.
Tomorrow will be my first day back at work. I am actually looking forward to go to the office.
Not being able to eat or drink, has surely helped my weight loss, between Wednesday and Friday I had dropped 4 pounds, but I know I was pretty dehydrated Friday.
As for the low back and leg pain and muscle spasms- they are much better- now only being awoke once a night with charlie horses, which is a far far cry better then the every 10 minutes I was experiencing last week.
I am hoping to be back in the Gym on Thursday. I have missed it alot- Yes I did just say that.
I missed seeing my Sister in law Confirmed a Catholic on Saturday night and Missed Easter with my Nephews on Sunday but I couldnt take a chance of getting them ill.
I am viewing this as a minor bump in the road- its a bit fruastrating to know I have been working hard at being healthy to be TKOed by a virus and strep for a week, but such is life.
Its all part of the journey.....
She put me on an antibotic and did a Mono blood test and sent me home to bed.
By Friday the swelling was really bad, and my throat felt like I was swollowing lite matches. When I called my PCP her nurse advised me that they had no appointments available as it was a holiday ( Good Friday), they advised if I felt that bad I should go to Patient first or the ER. I picked Patient First. I had a friend take me.
The Doctor at Patient First was very nice- he did a strep test which came back positive, a MONO test which came back negative ( thats a good thing) diagnosised me with a severe strep throat and virus. Advised bed rest and fluids- yeah right I was having a hard time swollowing my own spit.
On the way back my friend and I stopped at Safe Way, got some grape juice - the orange juice I had been trying to drink was just too much for my throat, some vita waters, some soft cheese, yogurt and sherbert. Not exactly on my eating plan but it was all soft and easily swollewed.
To bed I went with my trusted heating pad on my face- the doctor had recommend the heat to promote blood flow to the area to help the swelling.
I'm getting a bit of cabin fever- I'm not a good intervort - I like people I like being out and about.
Tomorrow will be my first day back at work. I am actually looking forward to go to the office.
Not being able to eat or drink, has surely helped my weight loss, between Wednesday and Friday I had dropped 4 pounds, but I know I was pretty dehydrated Friday.
As for the low back and leg pain and muscle spasms- they are much better- now only being awoke once a night with charlie horses, which is a far far cry better then the every 10 minutes I was experiencing last week.
I am hoping to be back in the Gym on Thursday. I have missed it alot- Yes I did just say that.
I missed seeing my Sister in law Confirmed a Catholic on Saturday night and Missed Easter with my Nephews on Sunday but I couldnt take a chance of getting them ill.
I am viewing this as a minor bump in the road- its a bit fruastrating to know I have been working hard at being healthy to be TKOed by a virus and strep for a week, but such is life.
Its all part of the journey.....
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Happy Easter
I wanted to wish everyone a Very Happy Easter and Passover. I hope you all had a great time being with family and friends today.
I'm still sidelined. Had to make a second visit to the Doctors on Friday evening.
My throat is very swollen, and I am still running a fever. The Doctor diagnosis is that I have strep and a virus.
I haven't been to work since Wednesday nor have I been in Brick Bodies since Wednesday. I miss working out, but know that listening to my body and its need to rest so it heals.
Enjoy these first days of spring and these lovely holidays.
I'm still sidelined. Had to make a second visit to the Doctors on Friday evening.
My throat is very swollen, and I am still running a fever. The Doctor diagnosis is that I have strep and a virus.
I haven't been to work since Wednesday nor have I been in Brick Bodies since Wednesday. I miss working out, but know that listening to my body and its need to rest so it heals.
Enjoy these first days of spring and these lovely holidays.
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Side lined for a few days
For the last week I have been having horrible muscle spasms from my right hip down my right leg. They were getting so bad that I have not been sleeping. It seems that in my overly zellous enjoyment of the gym- working out for 2 and 1/2 hours on Sunday was not the best thing for my body.....
Yes I need to learn to pace myself,but hey I'm new to this.
Yesterday I noticed that the right side of my face was a bit swollen. Last night I noticed that the glands in my groin were swollen. I knew I had an appointment with my PCP today anyway for a follow up so I figured I'd discuss all this with her then.
Well by this morning it hurt to swollow, the right side of my face was very swollen, and I felt feverish. I was stupid and still went to the gym this morning but working out was hard.
So the bad news from the doctor :
I have a severe strep throat and possibly Mono- she did a blood test and will have the results tomorrow. I'm on bed rest till at least Friday, maybe longer if I do have mono.
The good news:
I have lost 91.7lbs.... Amazing
she reduced my diabetic medication again this is the 4th drop in 6 months.
What does my wonderful coach say:
Keep the fire burning at a stead flame- dont burn to hot or too cold...
IE- slow but steady is better then doing to much at 1 time.
And of course to follow my doctors orders.
Life is a learning experience....
Yes I need to learn to pace myself,but hey I'm new to this.
Yesterday I noticed that the right side of my face was a bit swollen. Last night I noticed that the glands in my groin were swollen. I knew I had an appointment with my PCP today anyway for a follow up so I figured I'd discuss all this with her then.
Well by this morning it hurt to swollow, the right side of my face was very swollen, and I felt feverish. I was stupid and still went to the gym this morning but working out was hard.
So the bad news from the doctor :
I have a severe strep throat and possibly Mono- she did a blood test and will have the results tomorrow. I'm on bed rest till at least Friday, maybe longer if I do have mono.
The good news:
I have lost 91.7lbs.... Amazing
she reduced my diabetic medication again this is the 4th drop in 6 months.
What does my wonderful coach say:
Keep the fire burning at a stead flame- dont burn to hot or too cold...
IE- slow but steady is better then doing to much at 1 time.
And of course to follow my doctors orders.
Life is a learning experience....
Sunday, April 5, 2009
101 Things to do before I die
Back in January I attened the Parker Chiropractic Seminar in Las Vegas- Jack Canfield was one of the speakers ( Author and creater of The chicken soup for the soup books). In his talk he advises all of us to write a list of 101 things we wanted to do before we die. I had started this list and then when my mood soured I sent it aside. This week I picked it back up- today I finished it. For me however its 101 things to do before I die.
I thought I would share it with you all.
101 things to do before I die
1-Tour the vataican
2- See the louve museum
3-Tour Buckingham palace
4-Shop for clothes in anystore
5-Be married to a passionate man
6- Learn to do the waltz
7-See the Grand Canyon
8- Dance at Nick and Hunters weddings
9-Learn to Tango
10-Dance in Public
11- See a Polar Bear up close
12-Be a speaker at a Parker Seminar
13-Help others live a healthy life
14-Be a great- Aunt
15-Own a convertible
16-See the Eifle tower
17-Go to Ireland
18-Go back to Poland
19-See Auswitze
20-See the Medditreana
21-be kissed with such passion it brings tears to my eyes
22-Weight 150lbs
23-Be a part of Reisterstown family Chiropractic being a million dollar business
24-Learn to salsa dance
25- Visit the California wine country
26- See Figi
27- Go to Austriala
28-Swim Naked in the Carribean
29- See Nigra Falls
30-Go to Disney Land
31- Never have to worry about money again
32- Be a coach
33- Make a difference for others
34- Learn to play chess
35- Be an inspiration to someone else
36-Be a part of Chiropractic becoming main stream medicine
37-Celebrate my 100th birthday
38- celebrate my brothers 100th birthday
39- Learn to belly dance
40- See my nephews graduate high school
41- See both nephews graduate from college
42- fall in love again
43-see the seisth chaple
44- see St Ann’s shrine in Quebec
45- See a cher concert
46-Meet the President of the usa
47-See a Barry Manilow concert
48- See Stone hedge
49-See the pyramins
50-Learn about wines/tasting
51- See the statue of Liberty
52- See the empire state building
53-Own a pink Diamond
54-Own a pink sapphire
55- Take a cruise
56- go to Denmark
57-Go to Belize
58-attend a mass offered by the Pope
59-Go to Hawiie
60-Read Moby Dick
61-Learn to crochet
62- See the holyland
63-Go to the whaling wall
64- learn about buddisum
65-Get a degree as a coding and billing specialist
66-Open my own company
67- Own an Astin Martin
68=Write a book
69-Be a part of a close knit group of friends
70-Learn and practice tantric
71-See Alaska
72-Go to the bottom of the grand canyon
73-Parasail over the carribean
74- See London
75-Shop at Harriods in London
76-Tour the white house
77-See all of the Smithonian museums
78-Experience zero gravity
79-Walk the Chesapeake Bay bridge
80-Go to the top of the space needle
81-Visit the rock and roll hall of fame
82- Learn to Cook
83-Learn to make wine
84- Own a house
85-Learn to golf
86- Empower other women
87-Help children with disabilities
88-work with children that have cancer
89-Make a difference for a child
90-Be a leader in the chiropractic profession
91-Help young girls build healthy self-esteem
92-Learn more about computers
93-Experience ultimate happiness
94-See a live Pengin in its natural habitat
95-Help other life a better life
96- swim with dolphins
97-Go to the top of Dunns river falls
98-See the liberty bell
99-work with battered women to help them get their lives back
100-See Germany
101-Go to Greece
I thought I would share it with you all.
101 things to do before I die
1-Tour the vataican
2- See the louve museum
3-Tour Buckingham palace
4-Shop for clothes in anystore
5-Be married to a passionate man
6- Learn to do the waltz
7-See the Grand Canyon
8- Dance at Nick and Hunters weddings
9-Learn to Tango
10-Dance in Public
11- See a Polar Bear up close
12-Be a speaker at a Parker Seminar
13-Help others live a healthy life
14-Be a great- Aunt
15-Own a convertible
16-See the Eifle tower
17-Go to Ireland
18-Go back to Poland
19-See Auswitze
20-See the Medditreana
21-be kissed with such passion it brings tears to my eyes
22-Weight 150lbs
23-Be a part of Reisterstown family Chiropractic being a million dollar business
24-Learn to salsa dance
25- Visit the California wine country
26- See Figi
27- Go to Austriala
28-Swim Naked in the Carribean
29- See Nigra Falls
30-Go to Disney Land
31- Never have to worry about money again
32- Be a coach
33- Make a difference for others
34- Learn to play chess
35- Be an inspiration to someone else
36-Be a part of Chiropractic becoming main stream medicine
37-Celebrate my 100th birthday
38- celebrate my brothers 100th birthday
39- Learn to belly dance
40- See my nephews graduate high school
41- See both nephews graduate from college
42- fall in love again
43-see the seisth chaple
44- see St Ann’s shrine in Quebec
45- See a cher concert
46-Meet the President of the usa
47-See a Barry Manilow concert
48- See Stone hedge
49-See the pyramins
50-Learn about wines/tasting
51- See the statue of Liberty
52- See the empire state building
53-Own a pink Diamond
54-Own a pink sapphire
55- Take a cruise
56- go to Denmark
57-Go to Belize
58-attend a mass offered by the Pope
59-Go to Hawiie
60-Read Moby Dick
61-Learn to crochet
62- See the holyland
63-Go to the whaling wall
64- learn about buddisum
65-Get a degree as a coding and billing specialist
66-Open my own company
67- Own an Astin Martin
68=Write a book
69-Be a part of a close knit group of friends
70-Learn and practice tantric
71-See Alaska
72-Go to the bottom of the grand canyon
73-Parasail over the carribean
74- See London
75-Shop at Harriods in London
76-Tour the white house
77-See all of the Smithonian museums
78-Experience zero gravity
79-Walk the Chesapeake Bay bridge
80-Go to the top of the space needle
81-Visit the rock and roll hall of fame
82- Learn to Cook
83-Learn to make wine
84- Own a house
85-Learn to golf
86- Empower other women
87-Help children with disabilities
88-work with children that have cancer
89-Make a difference for a child
90-Be a leader in the chiropractic profession
91-Help young girls build healthy self-esteem
92-Learn more about computers
93-Experience ultimate happiness
94-See a live Pengin in its natural habitat
95-Help other life a better life
96- swim with dolphins
97-Go to the top of Dunns river falls
98-See the liberty bell
99-work with battered women to help them get their lives back
100-See Germany
101-Go to Greece
Friday, April 3, 2009
WAAHHOOO Moments
Waahhoo moments are new for me- but I have had several lately.
This morning I woke up feeling much better then I have the last 2 days- Wednesday and Thursday I had a sore throat, stuffy head and fever- this morning I was like 95% better- and I took NO medications - just vitamin C, lots and lots of fluids and sleep.
WAAHHOOO
Not to long ago I had a very disastous date- the date started off well, but as we were finishing lunch the gentleman informed me of prefence that he has that I found degrading, gross and disgusting. When I called on of my oldest friend shaking my head in disbelieve, my friend gentle asked me - Ter - you and I both know you have struggled with low self-esteem for years, please tell me you said NO, I laughed and put my friend at ease - telling him- OH I did more then that- I thanked him ( the date) for lunch and walked out of the restuarant and drove him. All the while shaking my head. The old me would have tried to make his sicko request be ok.
WAAHHOO
After work today I went shopping with my girl friend Dawn. Dawn has 1 of the gastric bypass surgeries a few years ago, this past November Dawn had a liver transplant as she has liver cancer. Dawn has lost alot of weight. She agreed to join me at the gym and in the pool sunday Morning. She needed a bathing suit- so we went to walmart tonight. It was fun plucking bathing suits off the rack and tossing them into her cart. She swears in a year or less she will be doing this with me.
While she was trying on bathing suits- I was looking around and found tops that fit me- OMG clothes for me at Walmart. YEAP- They are plus sized tops but they fit , and fit well.They were less then 10 dollars a piece too.
WAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHOOOOOOOO
I am moving and doing, and enjoying and living so much these days that it really feels like I am having Waahhoo moments alot.
Living this journey is sooo awesome.
This morning I woke up feeling much better then I have the last 2 days- Wednesday and Thursday I had a sore throat, stuffy head and fever- this morning I was like 95% better- and I took NO medications - just vitamin C, lots and lots of fluids and sleep.
WAAHHOOO
Not to long ago I had a very disastous date- the date started off well, but as we were finishing lunch the gentleman informed me of prefence that he has that I found degrading, gross and disgusting. When I called on of my oldest friend shaking my head in disbelieve, my friend gentle asked me - Ter - you and I both know you have struggled with low self-esteem for years, please tell me you said NO, I laughed and put my friend at ease - telling him- OH I did more then that- I thanked him ( the date) for lunch and walked out of the restuarant and drove him. All the while shaking my head. The old me would have tried to make his sicko request be ok.
WAAHHOO
After work today I went shopping with my girl friend Dawn. Dawn has 1 of the gastric bypass surgeries a few years ago, this past November Dawn had a liver transplant as she has liver cancer. Dawn has lost alot of weight. She agreed to join me at the gym and in the pool sunday Morning. She needed a bathing suit- so we went to walmart tonight. It was fun plucking bathing suits off the rack and tossing them into her cart. She swears in a year or less she will be doing this with me.
While she was trying on bathing suits- I was looking around and found tops that fit me- OMG clothes for me at Walmart. YEAP- They are plus sized tops but they fit , and fit well.They were less then 10 dollars a piece too.
WAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHOOOOOOOO
I am moving and doing, and enjoying and living so much these days that it really feels like I am having Waahhoo moments alot.
Living this journey is sooo awesome.
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Listening to our bodies
Listening to our bodies
My coach and I talk a lot about listening to Innate – Innate is the intelligence in all of us that tells us what our bodies need. Unfortunately we also have a bad little voice in our heads that tell us we need bad stuff.
I like to think of this as the Angel and Devil on each shoulder. The Angel/Innate tells us what we need in any given moment and only wants us to succeed. The Devil/the story we tell ourselves about ourselves- tells us the stuff to sabotage ourselves. My story as I have shared before is that I am worthless and don’t deserve the good. That story will never go away- it’s just a matter of learning to recognize when that voice is talking and ignore it.
This morning when my alarm went off at 5AM- like it does every morning, I woke up feeling awful. My head was all stuffy, my ears hurt, my throat felt like I was swallowing shards of glass, and I had a bad headache. Innate told me to go back to bed, skip the gym, so I did. I did get up and go to work- as it was the first of the month and I had to do the monthly close out.
About 10:30 Innate told me I needed to be home in bed. I left work, stopped at the local deli and get a cup of matzo ball soup, while I was in the deli- the Devil on my shoulder was trying to convince me that I needed some chocolate covered jelly filled cookies, but I didn’t listen. I came home had my soup, a big bottle of water and went to bed. I slept for several hours and awoke feeling a bit better. Innate always knows…
My coach keeps telling me Innate will never forget or forsake me, Innate will always lead me in the right direction. It’s taken me a long while to get this, and I think I only have it sometimes, but he is so RIGHT!!!
Do you know when Innate is talking to you- it isn’t the voice telling you that you need chocolate covered fudge pop tarts.
You learn a lot in the journey of life.
My coach and I talk a lot about listening to Innate – Innate is the intelligence in all of us that tells us what our bodies need. Unfortunately we also have a bad little voice in our heads that tell us we need bad stuff.
I like to think of this as the Angel and Devil on each shoulder. The Angel/Innate tells us what we need in any given moment and only wants us to succeed. The Devil/the story we tell ourselves about ourselves- tells us the stuff to sabotage ourselves. My story as I have shared before is that I am worthless and don’t deserve the good. That story will never go away- it’s just a matter of learning to recognize when that voice is talking and ignore it.
This morning when my alarm went off at 5AM- like it does every morning, I woke up feeling awful. My head was all stuffy, my ears hurt, my throat felt like I was swallowing shards of glass, and I had a bad headache. Innate told me to go back to bed, skip the gym, so I did. I did get up and go to work- as it was the first of the month and I had to do the monthly close out.
About 10:30 Innate told me I needed to be home in bed. I left work, stopped at the local deli and get a cup of matzo ball soup, while I was in the deli- the Devil on my shoulder was trying to convince me that I needed some chocolate covered jelly filled cookies, but I didn’t listen. I came home had my soup, a big bottle of water and went to bed. I slept for several hours and awoke feeling a bit better. Innate always knows…
My coach keeps telling me Innate will never forget or forsake me, Innate will always lead me in the right direction. It’s taken me a long while to get this, and I think I only have it sometimes, but he is so RIGHT!!!
Do you know when Innate is talking to you- it isn’t the voice telling you that you need chocolate covered fudge pop tarts.
You learn a lot in the journey of life.
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