Wishing I had a GPS for my life

Last summer, after a major disaster with Map Quest leaving me stranded in the middle of Fort Lee, NY, I gave in and purchased a GPS. I did not think I would like it at first but knowing my boss and I were going to be making trips to Downtown Philly, King of Prussia, and Jersey City within a few weeks of each other, I relented.
It only took using it once for me to really like it. It tells me everything I need to do- of course I bought one called “Navigation for Dummies”. This is exactly what I need- it’s simple and easy to understand. I find great comfort in hearing that robot sort of voice tell me I will need to make a left in 1. 2 miles.
The last few weeks I feel like I need a GPS for my life. I seem to have so many twists and turns – that I have no idea which way to turn.
I have been contemplating taking a course or two to become a health/life coach, but there are so many programs out there, many of them involving selling products like exercise equipment or supplements. Some of the programs involve “fire walks, or jumping from helicopters” also not my thing.
As I related last week- I have no clue anymore how to be anything but a workaholic, just this week I forged 2 new work relationships, that I am sure will proved to be good for the company, but have no clue how to form personal relationships.
Then there is this whole issue of my physical health. A trip to my PCP on Friday provided upsetting to say the least. The 3 bacteria have not cleared up; in fact they appear to be worse. She and I did have a long talk, about all the things going on – she agreed that I have good reason to feel depressed, but doesn’t think it’s true depression but rather from how depleted I am feeling physically. As she descripts it my body has been fighting Vietnam for the last 4 months and used every bit of its reserve, and is continuing to fight with resources it really doesn’t have. The game plan well at the moment she is re-culturing everything and has ordered a CT scan of my head and sinuses.
I’m just not sure what direction to take with my life and that is just not like me. I am sure my coach will tell me to spend some time being quiet and not thinking about it and in that quiet my innate will tell me. I just haven’t seem to be able to get myself there either.

No one ever said the journey would be easy.

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Hoorah

Terry