24 years ago

Wow, I woke up this morning thinking about where I was and what I was doing 24 years ago today.
May 30, 1986 was the day before I married Edward. It was an unbelievably stressful day- for starters it was over 100 degrees with 90% humidity. I was still living at my parent’s house which having been built in the early 60s did NOT have central Air conditioning. The only room that did was a window unit in their bedroom. IT was HOT!!!!
That Friday morning dawned with much to do- being overly organized I had a tight schedule to adhere to…. HAHAHAHAHA yeah right.
Edward had already moved into out 1 bedroom apartment which was air condition, so he did not understand my OMG I’m melting statement that morning.
Murphy’s Law states that which can go wrong will---- WELL we were having a Murphy’s Law day.

• My car over heated
• My dress which had been done but the hem 4 days before was now without sleeves as the lady making had decided she did not like them and took them off to redo them.
• The tuxedo place after months of reassuring me that they would have no problem getting a full tux for my Plus sized hubby- did not have a shirt for him, or the white cummerbund we ordered.
• My brother’s tux pants were at least 3 inches too short
• My Dad’s tux had a burn hole on the sleeve
• My Mom was all upset that her Dad was not going to be able to make it since he had a stroke 3 weeks before
• And did I mention it was the HOTTEST end of May in recorded history?

Something in me told me that all this nonsense was just God’s way of telling me that which was worth working for was worth having.

That marriage was worth having- it lasted a little over 20 yrs when Edward passed away. I know that somewhere in the hereafter he is smiling thinking about that weekend.

I am much different person NOW then I was then- of course I was 22 then, 46 now, but beyond that I have learned much about myself and how I related to the world. While I miss Edward dearly, and wish everyday he was with me- there is NO way I’d ever want to go back to who I was 24 yrs ago.

It was Edward’s request that I move on, start dating , fall in love and get married again- that promise to him is proving to be much much harder than the 1 to made 24 yrs ago tomorrow. My dating experience over the last year leaves me wondering if a second Love is even possible. But because I promised I shall keep trying.


This journey included many great memories- cherish them along the way

Love and Laughter

Hoorah
Terry

Happy Mothers day

Happy Mother’s Day

Today is Mother’s Day. It’s the 15th Mother’s day I have spent without my Mom.
My Mom was a very amazing and funny lady- she was affectionately known by many as Mother Frazee.
I miss her a lot; she taught me many things in the 32 years she was here with us. One of the greatest things I learn from her was how to be a friend. I know my brother misses her as well. In many ways she and my brother were closer then she and I were, and that was not a bad thing. I think all Moms’ and sons have a special relationship and I was never jealous of that.
My home is full of fun memories of her and my Dad too. I have their wedding photo in my living room; I have many other photos of her and her parents in my den. These photos and memories help me to feel her presence with me daily.
I tell my Brother frequently what joy his boys must be bringing her. My brother was the adventurous one growing up, while I was quiet and pretty much a book worm; my brother was well – shall we say BUSY and adventurous. He now has 2 boys just like him. While my Mom would have no doubt been concerned for my Nephew yesterday when he broke 2 metatarsal bones in his left foot playing baseball, she is smiling and nodding her head knowing my brother is once again getting a dose of his own medicine. My brother was always getting injured, hurt or in some way some sort of mayhem. She is no doubt amused by the stuff my nephews get into.
I miss my Mom.

To update you all on ME- well I continue to fight the bacterial infections- I am on yet another antibiotic this week. My wonderful friends in Florida sent me some supplements that should also start to help my body rid itself of these infections. I have been speaking with my PCP regularly, my blood work is showing an excellent A1C, and thyroid levels (2 keep indications that my weight loss is working well for my body) However my electrolytes remain low, and I am very fatigued which my Doctor says is a very good indication that my body is working hard to get rid of these infections. Her advice to do as little as possible right now, I am taking my medications, my supplements and resting as much as I can. Ariel has been doing her best to take care of me- as noted in the photo – she is asleep on my hip.

Wishing all of you that are Mom’s a very HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY and to all of my wonderful friend’s MOMS HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY TO YOU AND THANK YOU FOR GIVE US YOUR SON OR DAUGHTER- They are a gem.

Remember those that have walked this journey before us is a good thing.

Love and Laughter

Hoorah

Terry

I never promised you a rose garden

I never promised you a rose Garden

I beg your pardon,
I never promised you a rose garden.
Along with the sunshine,
There's gotta be a little rain sometimes.
When you take, you gotta give, so live and let live,
Or let go.
I beg your pardon,
I never promised you a rose garden.

This song has been stuck in my head for a few days now. None of us were promised a rose garden; none of us were promised everything would always be great. NO ONE was given those promises.

I have also been reminded of the story of the butter fly keeper that pain staking watched as his beautiful Monarch butterfly struggled to free itself from the Cocoon, after hours and hours of struggle the butterfly had only released 1 wing. The butterfly keeper could not bare to watch anymore and free the butterfly from its cocoon. The butterfly’s 1 wing never devopled the muscle it needed to fly correctly because the keeper had pulled from its cocoon, for it’s in that struggle to free itself that the butterfly develops its muscles in its wings to fly.

My point of all this is –
Yes I have been struggling lately, with the infections, fevers, etc- but I know that there is a reason for this struggle, what the lesson is – I do not know, but I do know God is giving me this struggle to learn something, to get somewhere, to gain something. - At the right time- HE (God) will reveal it to me. Till then I will embrace this struggle.

The update from the Doctors-
The CT scan was Thursday- it shows no major issues, just lots of inflammation. The blood work is showing EXCELLENT A1C and TSH levels, however my white counts are elevated and my Electrolytes are very depleted. My PCP suggested Gatorade but I really hate the taste of it.
I did take this weekend to rest and try to catch up on my sleep, it helped some but I still do not feel right.

The journey thru life should not be without struggle for it’s in the struggle that we gain muscle,

Love and Laughter

Hoorah

Terry